the match made in heaven.

2005-04-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

eleanor shifted already la !

ranaway @ blogspot

2004-11-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

i hate you.

i hate you for saying those words.
i hate you for not being grateful.
i hate you for not being appreciative.
i hate you for not even saying a thank you.
i hate you for not apologising.
i hate you for not think before you act.
i hate you for you've not said those words to me before.
i hate you for making me so upset.
i hate you for making me cry like a f*ck idiot.
i hate you for making me feel so stupid.
i hate you for making me seem like an idiot.
i hate you for hurting my feelings.
i hate you for crashing my hopes.
i hate you for being nice when you're not.
i hate you for bickering with me.

i hate you for everything.

2004-10-10T13:15:00.000+08:00

it's been more than a month !
haha, and i won't be here for the next 1 and a half months !
those who know, yes, Os are just in 21 days and counting.
WISH ME LUCK ! quick !
lol.
all i have to do is mug mug mug and do my best !
even if i don't get in SAJC, i HAVE TO get into NGEE ANN BUSINESS STUDIES !
entrepreneurship ! i'm coming !
lol.
STUDY STUDY STUDY !
TOP PRIORITY !
yes, no one's gonna make me fall.
after the 23rd of nov, 1545 hour.
I'M FREE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
freedom = study + finish exams + get good results
i can do it !
haha, i'm talking to myself, but it's ok.
and all those out there having Os in 21 days and counting.
GOOD LUCK ! and DO YOUR BEST !
have the determination and motivation.
WORK TOWARDS YOUR DREAMS !
(=

I'M OFF FROM HERE !
see you in 21days + 23days = 44 days time !
haha. :D
I MISS THESE PEOPLE LA:
DEX
CARRIE
EUGENE
TIMMY
FEIMAO
MISS soonQY
BJ
IVY
FELICIA
HUIWEN
JOANNA
PEISHAN, DIANA, JASMINE CANNOT MISS, EVERYDAY IN SCHOOL ALSO SEE THEM. :D
GINNY
CHASE
JACIEL
TERRY
RYAN
VERONICA
THUNDER
CHERMAINE TAN LI LING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and many more PLEASE.

MEET UP SOON PEOPLE !

(=

2004-09-05T15:02:00.000+08:00

starting to live in my own world...

...is fun.

though i know it's a selfish act.

but i have no choice.

i can't tolerate attitudes and all anymore.

i won't give in anymore, not anymore.

i won't take the blames, NONE !

i will NOT let anyone step on my anymore, ever again.

you like it or not, i don't care.

because i'm living in a world on my own.

and i'm better off this way.

yeah... call me selfish, call me names.

i can't bother anymore, not anymore, never again.

living in a world of my own, i fear no rejection from you.

2004-09-01T00:51:00.000+08:00

when you knew me, i was like a 3-year-old kid.
when i knew you, you seem like a mature adult.
but when you left me, i fell and seemed like an infant.
dependent on others to help me, as i couldn't stand on my own.
and when you left me, you are still the same.
you left me lying so lonely and lost.
however, during this period, i grew, i grew up.
from a 3-year-old to an infant to a 16-year-old teenager.
a teenager with brains, brains which function really well.
brains which tells me what's good and what's bad.
brains which tells me what i've wasted my time on.
and as time goes by, i seem to be older and older.
but you, you seem to be like a child.
it seems like we've switched our positions.
YES, i see you as a KID, not even a 3-year-old kid.
all your thinkings, all you actions, all of your everything.
are all so CHIDLISH, pardon me for saying this.
BUT IT'S THE FACT.
i've to thank you, really thank you.
for allowing me to grow up, and know what's wrong and right.
allowing me to mature so much, allowing me to cherish life.
i THANK YOU !
however it's sad, because i pity YOU.
i don't know if you'll ever grow up, of course i wish you would.
but you've to depend on yourself, pick up your broken pieces yourself.
stand on your own, solve your own problems.
be an adult, be who you are, and not the chidlish, immature you.

thank you, for allowing me, to grow up.

2004-08-20T12:15:00.000+08:00

I REFUSE !

I REFUSE !

I REFUSE !

SIMPLY REFUSE TO !

2004-08-18T02:15:00.000+08:00

The Is about you.

i don't wish to be hating someone i once loved dearly.
i don't want us to become strangers.
i can't help feeling this way.
i hate the way you treat me.
i hate the way you think about me sometimes.
i really hate your immaturity.
i can't stand the way you make it seem like it's all MY fault.
i don't want to feel lonely when you're out there somewhere.
i want to forget you, i really want to.
i am too tired, too tired to hang on anymore.
i really need your help in forgetting you.
i need you to just get out of my life.
i guess it's the other way round.
i guess i should get out of your life instead.
i should just get my ass off from your memory.
i just want you to be happy.
i just want you to appreciate what i've done for you all these while.
i don't understand, why do you not feel this way.
i don't want to be living in fear of offending you.
i don't see why i should fear you at all.
i have never done you any wrong.
i took all the blames when you pushed it to me.
i took it all, but have you ever appreciated what i did.
i have never blamed you for anything.
i kept it all inside of me.
i had to keep it all to myself because i fear so much to offend you.
i really wished you could understand my position instead.
i wished you could give in to me, just ONCE is enough.
i hate to be trampled all over by you.
i don't wish to shed anymore tears for you.
i want to stop the pain, the pain of you not appreciating.
i know you said you appreciated, but i don't see it or feel it.
i only hear it, over and over again, but no actions was taken.
i just feel that i don't have a stand in your life at all.
i can never voice out how i feel because i know i would be blamed.
i am really exhausted and want to go to sleep.
i know you have your work, girlfriend and friends to worry about.
i have more than you do, but i still give care and concern to you.
i just wish you could give 0.01% of your time to me, but hell NO.
i just want that 0.01% of your time, but it's all so difficult.
i don't even see, feel, or hear about your concern.
i want to know it from you, if you're really concerned.
i don't want anyone to tell me anything.
i am not really gonna care if you see this.
i just can't hide my feelings anymore.
i can write anything i want to, it's my blog.
i didn't mention names, so don't assume.
i am talking about YOU, but i still think assumptions shouldn't be made.
i just want to spit out all the feelings kept within me for these 2 years.
i don't want to hide anymore because i know you don't care.
i know you don't like things to be blogged about you.
i didn't say who was i talk about, so why are you being so sensitive?
i know you hate it just because of your reputation, and you know what.
i think you don't even have a reputation.

GO AHEAD, GIVE ME A DRESSING-DOWN WHEN YOU SEE OR HEAR ABOUT THIS.
I AM ALL PREPARED !
I WOULD FEEL NOTHING BECAUSE I AM TOO USED TO IT.
SCOLD ME IF YOU WANT, LECTURE ME IF YOU NEED TO.
BUT I KNOW IS THAT ALL I HAVE WRITTEN, ARE NOT LIES.
IF YOU STILL HAVE YOUR CONSCIENCE, I HOPE IT KNOCKS SOME SENSE INTO YOU.
IF YOU FEEL THAT I HAVE DONE ANY WRONG, TELL ME !
JUST SO PREPARED !
I ALREADY KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO SAY.

AND KAYPOS OUT THERE
I DON'T NEED YOU
TO DELIVER THE MESSAGE
TO WHOEVER I AM TALKING ABOUT !

JUST SHUT
YOUR BIG FAT MOUTHS !

I DON'T NEED
A MESSENGER !

2004-08-15T23:51:00.000+08:00

SUPER CROSSED !

I HATE HER !

don't assume !
don't make wild guesses.
HER is not who you think she is.

i really fear my words would offend you, and you know i HATE to quarrel with you.

2004-08-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

well well, it's that silly boy's birthday.
heh heh, haven't wished her though.
grins.
waiting for the auspicious time to arrive.

laughs.
well, it's my own way of wishing that silly "HAPPY BIRTHDAY !"

finally, ***'s of legal age to smoke, drink and club.
hmm, i truly hope you will mature after this birthday.
and i really really hope you won't misinterpret my words.
think before you say anything, cos' i want to see a grown up you.

though this birthday, you've someone special by your side to celebrate with you.
i won't forget, and never will i forget your birthday.

from the time i knew you, i've never got to celebrate your birthday with you. i remembered, before your first birthday arrived, i was still thinking what to get for you. i asked you, what you like, and you replied me with a very sweet reply. till now, i still remember that sentence. it still lingers around me even though 2 years have passed. it's really silly of me, but having to see you smile, is really good enough. as long as i know you're happy, you're safe, you're fine, there's nothing i should worry about. well, i hope you'll enjoy your EIGHTEEN birthday, no matter with who, your girlfriend or brothers or friends. enjoy yourself. you're finally eighteen. so take good care of yourself and don't let your friends or parents or girlfriend down. work hard in any areas. one thing i really hope you could promise me is to study again, but well, i doubt it will ever come true. anyway,
HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY !
hugss tight, much love !

i don't know if you'll see this, but well, i hope what i've said does make sense.

i wished i could... spend your eighteen birthday with you ...but i can't.

2004-08-12T12:15:00.000+08:00

this is going to be so upsetting.
sigh.
i still can't believe it, can't accept the fact.
i've got a ~~FUCKING~~ C6 for my chinese Os.

well, there's this feeling in me which i can't use words to express.
it's really SOUR.
my teacher said. "i think you're the only one who deproved, the rest are almost a grade or two higher."
sigh, so upsetting and hurting.
but who to blame other than myself.
guess i've got to retake that stupid chinese and face chinese books, AGAIN.
-sulks

when i got back my results, i had the urge to pick up my phone and dial for you.
i really wanted to share my sorrows with you.
but upon thinking what would your reaction be, i stopped pondering.
i told myself, there's no point.
i really hoped you were there when i got my results.
but, you weren't there, at all.
and i don't have enough courage to call for you.
sigh.

i wonder if you can feel my sadness. ):

2004-08-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

till today, my heart still skips a beat for you.
blood still rush down my face when i see you.
words are stammered as i talk to you.
that shyness i have for you, still exist.

nothing has changed since the day you left.
my love, my care, my concern.
it's still all the same since day one.
and nothing will change, was what i promised you.

i won't go back on my words no matter what happens.
because having you to smile is something i would like to see everyday.
me, knowing that you're fine and happy, makes my heart contented.
in short, all of your happiness, is mine.

but i would hate to see you in a daze.
staring into space, allowing wild thoughts to run through your mind.
it hurts my heart to see you this way.
because i once promised that i would take the tears and you take the smile.

it doesn't matter if you return my love.
as long as you understand and appreciate all that i've done.
i'm already thankful to have you feeling that way.
thankful to God for sending such an understanding person to me.

i just want to let you know that i'll be here, always.
a shoulder for you when your tears fall.
an listening ear when you need to complain.
a heart to for you when you need love.

my love for you since the day we met, has always been a hundred percent, nothing less.

2004-08-03T15:12:00.000+08:00

can someone tell me "WHY is iy ALWAYS ME?"
why is it a good person is always being referred as a bad one?
it isn't about unfairness.
just that the phrase "your kindness will be repaid" doesn't seem to be true.
i think the bad person is being repaid instead of the good.

SOMEONE, enlighten me PLEASE !

feeling so lost, don't know what should i do.
so many things are slipping out of my hands, bit by bit as years passed.
the significant other, friends(incuding peers), family, studies...
aren't these things the most important part of life?
hah, tell me about it.

i myself don't even know if i'm the good or the bad person.
i'm putting in effort, yet the others are making it seem like the fault lies with ME.
it seems like i should be the one taking all the resposibilities.
yes, i am the bad one.
the villain who caused all these.

whatever it is, i guess i brought all these upon myself.
who wants to be the bad guys at the end of the day right?
pushing the blame to someone else, who won't do it anyway?
but it's fine with me, as long as the others are happy.
and i'm NOT trying to make it sound as if i'm so noble(i'm not !).

in actual fact, i DO NOT have to torlerate with all these crap.
but i'm STUPID what, ain't i?
i'm the BAD guy, isn't it?
and am i taken for granted?
i don't know, i don't want to know, i don't wish to know.

feigning happiness isn't what i want to do.
why do i have to show you people i'm fine?
just because i don't want you people to think i'm childish.
throwing tantrums over a minor issue.
i don't wish to make it seem like you people are the bad guys.

it doesn't really matter alot anymore, it's gone it's gone.
and i knew that right from the start, it ain't gonna last at all.
if i could, i would.
but i can't, God gave us a memories.
let us just leave it as memories, alright?

you ain't here to tell me it's alright, sigh.

2004-08-01T02:15:00.000+08:00

i wonder when will you ever be mature.
your thinking is still so small.
i know i have no right at all.
but i still see you as a kid.

can't you be more understanding.
can't you open your mind wide to think carefully.
can't you just think twice before you act.
don't you know your words can hurt someone.

a reminder is a reminder.
telling you what to do is commanding you.
can't you differentiate the two.
it was only a reminder not a command.

your immaturity really turns me off.
i really don't know when you will ever grow up.
when will your mind think the age you are.
it's so disappointing to see you this way.

i really HATE seeing you this way.
i want to help but i really don't know how to.
i don't want to see you being immature.
i want to see the grown up you.

whatever it is i hope you will realise all these soon.
and if you think i am taking a dig at you i am NOT.
and i won't because i know when to and when not to.
i really hope you will grow up and the sooner the better.

sigh, i don't know what i want from you anymore.
but one thing for sure i still love you.

2004-07-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

thedayyouare________.
thatiswheniwillforgetyou.
thepromisesithatmadetoyou.
willALWAYSbekeptclosetomyheart.
thisipromiseyou.
you put a curve on my smile.

2004-07-12T02:15:00.000+08:00

been wondering so much lately.
been dreaming(like always) so much.
don't even know how are you doing.
don't even know if you're fine.

sometimes the words i say about may be harsh and cruel.
but, you know that i don't mean it.
all because is i care for you.
i do want you to be fine and happy.

wrote out the lyrics of "Fixing a Broken Heart".
i wonder if this song still means something in your heart.
'cause it still does, to me.
and it always has and always will.

'cause here in my heart
there's a picture of us together forever
unfaded n unbroken
wherever you go your love covers me
forever more you'll be here in my heart

you still mean alot to me.

2004-07-05T02:15:00.000+08:00

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i wish you knew what i need.

2004-07-04T15:02:00.000+08:00

RIPPED OFF FROM QIAOYING(WHO IN TURN, RIPPED OFF FROM WANXIN, WHO IN TURN, RIPPED OFF FROM SOME ELSE)

My name is: eleanor

I may seem: loud, narcissistic, fierce, unreasonable, bitchy.

But I'm really: someone you don't understand unless you know me.

People who know me think I'm: whatever they think i am.

If you knew me you'd probably: dislike me.

Sometimes I feel: i ought to lose weight, but where's my DETERMINATION.

In the morning, I: wake up and open my eyes.

I like to sleep: and NOT have nightmares or bad dreams.

If I could be doing anything right now, I would be: HOOKING A PBF.

Money is: NOT EVERYTHING, but having no money is NOTHING.

One thing I wish I had is: you(DREAM AGAIN !), sigh.

One thing I have that I wish I didn't: BREAST !

What I don't need: BREAST AND HAIRY ARMPITS !

If I had one wish it would be: to be with you and spend the rest of our lives together.

Love: -points to the side and my HOOTGANG LEADER. : D
My body: is filled with FATS !

If an angel flew into my window at night I would: know i'm dead. the angel has come to pick me up. (:

If a demon crashed into my window I would: i'm dreaming.

If I could see one person right now it would be: you.

Something I want but I don't really need is: money.

Something I need but I don't really want is: you.

I live to: EAT ! :D

I dare you to: diss me off.

I am afraid of: seeing you & her together.

It makes me angry when: people accuse me.

I dream about: she telling me that she has feelings for her. SAD!?

I daydream about: being rich !

My ideal mate would be: shrugs.

My ideal life would be: to be happy everyday ! :D

One thing I know that I will never be able to do: be right beside you and walk through life with you.

If I could change one thing about myself physically, it would be: flatter tummy, toned arms and toned thighs and calfs.

I am disappointed with: you and myself.

I am elated with: having to meet my PBF.

The story behind my username: i used to like westlife, alot and i still do.

My current favourite article of clothing: quiksilver.

The last cd that I bought is: thinks but can't remember.

My favourite place to be: is right beside you.

My least favorite place: is school.

If I could play any instrument, it would it be: drums and piano.

The last song I sang was: ming ming hen ai ni.

In my music player: the reason - hoobastank

I am currently annoyed by: some shite arse.

My favourite phrases are: YAWNS BURPS FARTS ! grins.

I am currently: very FULL(after lunch), and feeling tired physically, emotionally, mentally, technically.

you never tried to understand me and my feelings.

2004-07-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

pictures of us keeps flashing in front of me.
we were so close, so sweet, so in love back then.
every single thing you did for me, i appreciated.
but every single thing i did for you, seems so unappreciated.
why hold me when you know you'll let go of me?
you led me into you but let just like that.
did you think that it was unfair to me?
i don't understand why would you do something like that.
all i ask for is you to hold me and walk through life together.
is it that difficult or is it you don't want to spend your life with me.
i won't and i can't understand, why all these had happened before.

loving you is something i can do, for life.

2004-06-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

it's the 26th of june.
it's been 2 years.
it's been so long.

2 years ago on this date, at this time.
you asked me a question that brought us together.
though i did hesitate but i still agreed with you.
till today, that question is still fresh in my mind.
everything that you promised me, still lingers around me.
it was the best days of my life, even though it was short.

you gave me care.
you gave me concern.
you showered me with love.
and you gave me happiness(loving you).
you took away all my troubles.
you lighten off my burden.
you stood by me when i needed you.

but you came and went like the wind.
gone for almost 2 years.
and i'm still wondering, if you remembered today.
i know i am silly/stupid to actually hold on till now.
but i never knew why i was never given another chance.

i've never done you any wrong.
i've never owe you anything.
i've never let you down.
i've never left you all these while.

but why, why do i deserve all these?
you can say i make my own life miserable.
then why aren't you here to take my pain away?
to wipe my tears and to heal my heart, once again.
you know you've the ability to make me stand.
but why aren't you here for me?

now, it doesn't matter anymore.
i don't want you back.
i don't need you back.
i don't need your love.
i don't need your care.
i don't need anything from you.
i'm gonna survive without you.

even though when tears are shed.
i'm gonna make these shed tears worth it.
tears are never gonna shed for nothing again.
i'm gonna let this wait worth the while.

happiness is loving you.
but i no longer can do it.
as long as you're happy, i'm contented.
your happiness, will be mine.

one thing i really hope, is you to find back your old self.
i don't like who you are now.
it's so different from the first time i met you.
eyes of yours can't see this, but mouths will bring to ears of yours.
and i don't care, because i really miss the old you.

what are you?

2004-06-24T05:00:00.000+08:00

clock reads 4:58am.
yawns, i'm still awake.
going to sentosa later, and i'm still here !
omg PLEASE !
i swear i'm gonna sleep under the damn sun !
ohh, and be BLACK after that !
LOL, i LIKE !
cool what!? LOL.
I'M HUNGRY ! :D
and YAYIEE, we're gonna have MAC'S bf ! -yum
i can't wait for this 3 hours to pass !
haha, then i'm outta here.
meeting at 830 at harbour front.
i'm very sure carrie(which means including candice) and huiwen, will be LATE !
YAWNS.
anyway, i'm not the only one up.
there's dex, eugene and qiaoying.
haha, YAWNS AGAIN !
ok, shall end here.
-sniffs
I'M SLEEPY !

you got my heart melted.

2004-06-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

I WAS BORED !!!

the friend who lives nearest to you:
--> dex, eugene, diana and many more !

the friend you've known longest:
--> FUCK, my primary school friends? like durh ! ok, what about kindergarden friends? nonono, nursery friends PLEASE ! :D

the friend who was your enemy before:
--> many PLEASE !

the friend you usually go shopping with:
--> dex, carrie, diana, jasmine and many more !

the friend you go clubbing with:
--> dex, carrie, eugene, bj, ps, xb and LHONDA ! :D

the friend you usually tell your problems to:
--> no one, i don't see the need to. as long as people around me are happy, i don't have problems. (=

the friend you usually meet for meals?
--> dex ! lol. -rubs tummy

the friend you sing with:
--> MYSELF, ok, NO ! anyone PLEASE ! :D

the friend you last met:
--> i THINK is DEX and LHONDA !

the friend you last talked to:
--> carrie !

the friend you last talked to on the phone:
--> dex !

the friend you last smsed:
--> dex

the friend you hugged:
--> FUCK!? i can't remember, the last time i hugged someone was on FRIDAY.

the friend you last went out with:
--> dex and bj? I THINK.

the friend you last cried with:
--> no one, i cried to myself with LOTS OF LOTS OF people around ! -embarrassed

the friend you last said sorry to:
--> i think is bj?

the friend you are thinking of right now:
--> no one, not thinking of a FRIEND.

the friend you can't wait to see:
--> all of my friends, ok, DEX, CARRIE, LHONDA, DIANA, JASMINE, EUGENE, BJ, TIMMY and MISS SOON QIAOYING !

the friend whose presence you dearly miss
--> no one, not missing a friend. (=

and another one...

10 OF YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS (not ranked)

1] judith
2] jed
3] dex
4] eugene
5] carrie
6] roy
7] bj
8] timmy
9] psxb
10] LHONDA

9 THINGS THAT YOU REALLY WANT RIGHT NOW

1] be free
2] be happy
3] money to shop PLEASE !
4] *** to be happy
5] to be able to face ***
6] NOKIA 6230
7] get that layer of FATS off my tummy(lol)
8] 7/11's MASHED POTATOES -drools
9] be right beside *** (=

8 THINGS IN YOUR BAG

1] wallet
2] another wallet
3] discman
4] jacket
5] comb
6] handphone
7] minature perfume bottle
8] packets of tissue

7 THINGS IN YOUR BEDROOM

1] bed(durh), the question says "BEDROOM" !
2] clothes(lying all over)
3] 2 comforter(lying all over)
4] study table(in a mess)
5] closet
6] curtains(it fell off from the wall -pouts)
7] something from *** hanging on my lamp

6 OF YOUR FAVE MOVIES

1] phone booth
2] love actually
3] along came polly
4] harry potter
5] ZHUO YAN KAN JIAN GUI !
6] NOT missing out THE CANNIBALS ! (=

5 OF YOUR FAVORITE FOOD

1] RICE PLEASE !
2] potatoes
3] pasta
4] japanese cuisine
5] not forgetting, HOMECOOKED(varies)

4 THINGS YOU ATE/DRINK TODAY

1] soya bean
2] crabstick(s)
3] green tea
4] baked potatoes with cheddar and bacon bits

3 THINGS YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT

1] food
2] air
3] water

2 THINGS YOU USUALLY READ (not ranked)

1] textbooks(study what !)
2] storybooks

1 PERSON YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT(not ranked)

1] i don't live for anyone. with/without that person, i am still able to stand on my own. (=

...and another one...

Give us a name, bitch: eleanor
How old are you?: 16 years and 5months(lol)
How old do you want to be?: 21
What's your starsign?: aquarius -frowns
What would you rather your starsign be?: don't bother
Breeder?: ??? like HUH!?
Are you breeding right now?: no
Are you BLEEDING right now?: no no no ! my mense is LATE ! lol
How many toes do you have?: 10
How many teeth?: i THINK 28
Any siblings?: one
Any parents? : i came from an exploding rock
Where were you born?: mount e or a? lol
Do you wish you had a tail?: like, what for? so girls can mast themselves? hmm...

Crap
Do you like babies?: i guess so
Do you know where they come from?: like me, an exploding rock -rolls eyes
Can you tell me?: i just FARR KEENG DID !
Would you, could you, eat green eggs and ham?: no
Is Dr Seuss stupid?: who the f*** is dr seuss?
What's your day-job?: i'm still schooling
Does it suck monkey balls?: ??? -yawns
What would you rather be doing?: die cos' i'm answering STUPID questions
Where do you live?: singapore
Where would you rather live?: canada
Would you like to live on the moon?: no
Which do you prefer, badgers or skunks?: badgers
Are you a cat-girl?: no
Is Hentaii porn scary?: doubt so
Are cat-girls scary?: i guess so
Are you a furry?: not furry, hairy. heh heh
Are you furry, generally?: no
Penguins are cool. Why?: because they are, DURH !
Pick one: deaf or dumb.: dumb
Pick one: Britney or Christina: christina, britney SUCK PLEASE !
Pick one: smack or crack: crack
Pick one: puppies or kittens: puppies
Pick one: "Cassie is the greatest" or death.: cassie is the greatest
Pick one: cigarettes or, uh, cigarettes: can i farkeeng slap the person who came up with this question?

More crap ("bored now")
Best looking chick ever.: ME -waves YEA RIGHT ! jennifer aniston (((=
Best looking guy.: are guys ever good looking? lol :D
Most attractive foetus?: anything that's attractive?
Best show ever?: many
I'm bored now. Are you?: very
So ... you ever killed anyone?: unfortunately, i failed my attempt
Really?: yes, really ! -rolls eyes
Are you sure?: ok, no
Where'd you stash the body?: your farkeeng arse
Are you a Freemason?: no
Can I join?: hmm...
Can I poke you?: Can I poke you?
Does your milkshake bring all the boys to the yard?: no
Can you teach me? Or do you have to charge?: i'd charge
Best toy ever?: SEX TOY -giggles PLEASE, NO ! the computer, it does WONDERS. HAHA
Do you kill kittens?: no
Say something inspiring.: BANG THE WALL !

...and again, another one...

A- Age:

--- 16 years and 5months

B- Boyfriend:

--- what about, girlfriend? lol

C- Chore you hate:

--- washing the toilet

D- Did it before:

--- no, haha !

E- Essential make up item:

--- i don't put on make-up, natural beauty's the BEST ! :D

F- Favorite actor/actress:

--- jennifer aniston

G- Gold or silver:

--- both

H- Hometown:

--- my mommy's tummy(9 months)

I- Instruments you play:

--- i have no musical talent -pouts

J- Job title:

--- studying

K- Kids:

--- lovely ! path to happiness (=

L- Living arrangements:

--- comfortable, that is

M- Mom's name:

--- my mom's name

N- Num of times u yawn in a day?:

--- 98214792192156 times, yes

O- Overnight hospital stays:

--- yes, who don't right? unless those stay in KAMPONG one. lol. babies all have to stay at least a NIGHT right. -grins

P- Phobia:

--- many

Q- Quote you like to say:

--- many

R- Regular drink:

--- water, is HEALTHY !

S- Secret crush:

--- lol, slowly guess

T- Time you wake up:

--- 1300 hour

U- Unique habit:

--- many

V- Vegetable you refuse to eaT:

--- CELERY PLEASE !

W- Worst habit:

--- talking farkeeng loudly

X- X-rays you've had:

--- none

Y- Yummy food you make:

--- and it comes out from my arse, many combination you know ! lol

Z- Zodiac sign:

--- aquarius -frowns

...and another one, again...

PAST

1. When were you born: 21st january 1988

2. Where were you born: singapore

3. What was your first grade form teacher's name: mdm chang ! she's the best ! :D

4. What was your first pet's name: richie !

5. What was your worst accident (medical): -shrugs

6. What was your favorite cartoon: LITTLE LULU -laughs

7. Who was your first best friend: JOCELYN THAM EE LYN (((=

8. When was the first time you ever went on a plane: K1, 5?

9. What used to be your favorite color: BLUE, it still is, just that YELLOW comes FIRST now. (=

10. Did you ever wet your pants at school: no, but i do laugh at people when they DO WET their PANTS. -grins

11. Did you ever get sent to the principal?: 561356138765138756358631563150893165913 times

12. Did you ever start a food fight: yes, baha ! (((=

13. What was your worst fear: the CANE, when i was YOUNG

14. What was your favorite toy: i spoil almost every one of them, lol

15. Did you ever suck your thumb: yes, it's sweet ! haha

PRESENT

16. What time is it: 2215 hour

17. What's the date: 21/06/04

18. What is your favorite movie: phone booth (((=

19. What is your favorite song: many

20. Do you have any pets: yes, a dog

21. If so what are their name: richie !

22. What color hair do you have: dark & light brown and a little of red

23. What kind of music do you listen to: oldies, randb, retro, sentimental and a LITTLE of techno

24. Do you still watch cartoons: seldom. my mother cancelled the cartoons channels

25. What is your favorite TV show: friends

26. Do you get online often? yes

27. What state/province do you live in: a stupid RED DOT on the map, singapore

28. What's your favorite type of food: anything that is edible except CELERY !

FUTURE

29. What do you want to be when you grow up: set up my own business

30. Do you want to go to college: definitely !

31. Do you want to get married: -shrugs

32. If so at what age... if not why: 20 or 21

33. Do you want to have kids: yes

34. What kind of car do you want: BMW convertable ! series 7 PLEASE !

35. At what age do you think you'll live to: how the fark would i know -rolls eyes

36. Where do you want to live when you're 35: near the sea

37. What movie do you want to see next Saturday night: THE BE$T BET(anyone?) !

38. What time do you think you will go to bed: LATE LATE LATE probably after 3

39. Do you think you will have the same friends as you do now: i hope so

40. Do you want to walk on the moon: i'd like to try, if i could, before i die, lol

41. What kind of house do you want to live in: house with: kitchen, living room, balcony, 3 rooms(with bathroom in each of the rooms) at least, garden

42. Which country would you like to visit? canada =(((

...another one, grins...

______Your Life_______
[x] they call me: eleanor, nor loke, nor, ner ner, nezha, lu ming ming, lu meng meng, etc
[x] sex: female - fe = male + fe = malefe - male = fe + male = female
[x] first breath of air: 21st january 1988
[x] best friends: many, look at the side

______Rewind_______
[x] most memorable memory: 2 - 3 years ago
[x] worst?: NOW
[x] first best friend ever: JOCELYN THAM EE LYN -she's being missed

_______Love_______
[x] love is: CRAP
[x] first love?: true love? 08/06/02
[x] love or lust?: both
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than 1 person at one time: no, DURH !

_______True or False_______
[x] all u need is love?: false
[x] is there such thing as love at first sight?: yes, because it farkeeng happened
[x] are you in love right now?: yes & no
[x] how many times have you been in love?: 1? 2? 3? 4? 5? 6? nah, 3 times, that is.

_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] turns on: eyes, smile, hair, body.
[x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: no
[x] what kinda hair style?: short PLEASE !
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: anything (((=
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: when my friends introduce them
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers: no

_______Picky Picky_______
[x] dog or cat: preferred, dogs
[x] short or long hair: short.
[x] sunshine or rain: both
[x] moon or sun: both
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 bestie ! (((=
[x] summer or winter: both
[x] written letters or e-mails: written
[x] play station or nintendo: ps
[x] car or motorcycle: both
[x] house party or club: both
[x] what song are u listening to right now?: simple plan - perfect
[x] have you ever almost died?: yes, while crossing the road(all the time)
[x] how many kids do you want to have?: 4 ! (((=
[x] son's name?: -shuts
[x] daughter's name?: -shuts
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop?: how the fark would i know, just farkeeng eat it !
[x] what do you like most of the opposite/same sex?: : eyes, smile, hair, smell, body.
[x] personality: varies
[x] do others find you attractive?: depends
[x] anyone in mind?: yes & no
[x] who is it?: ***
[x] like friendster?: farkeeng lagger
[x] school?: sucks !

...and i think this is the last?...

BRIEFLY: Who/What comes to your mind when these things are mentioned?

Mornings:
school -yawns

Lunch:
food ! -yum

Afternoons:
napping time

Evening:
dinner !

Mall:
CWP?

Movie:
phone booth

Arcade:
-rolls eyes

Carparks:
BMW, CONVERTIBLE and MORE BMWs !

Music:
sadddddd

Cars:
i want to DRIVE !

Chocolate:
KINDER BUENO

Beer:
fosters

Cream Puffs:
durian

Blue:
ocean

Green:
grass

Yellow:
my fav. colour

Orange:
JOANNA MAN ! lol

Hate:
nothing

---Which do you Prefer---

1.WHITE OR RED ROSES?

i hate flowers ! :D

2.ORIGINAL OR COPY?

oringinal

3.FAME, FORTUNE OR BOTH?

both

4.RICKY MARTIN OR WILLIAM HUNG(AMERICAN IDOL)?

ricky martin PLEASE ! william hung can is HUNG PLEASE !

5.INCUBUS CONCERT OR KEITH MARTIN CONCERT?

incubus

6.CSI OR CSI:MIAMI?

CSI

7.MULLET, MOHAWK, OR DREADLOCKS?

mohawk

8.LIFE OR DEATH?

life. durh ! if i don't have a life, how to DIE and have DEATH ! tsk !

9.RING(JAPANESE VER) OR THE RING(AMERICAN VER)?

jap PLEASE ! american ver's CRAP ! (((=

10.MUDSLIDE OR BAILEYS?

baileys

----Question & Answer----

1.If you were the very last person on earth...?

i'd find my love and die right by her side

2.If you could kill someone with no problems:

i kill HER ! lol.

3.Do you agree with Same-Sex Marriage?

yes, definitely !

4.How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

1? ok, pathetic PLEASE !

5.If you were in a party at Europe and someone with the same sex kissed you on the lips, what would you do? take the kiss and continue ! lol

6.If you could turn back time, What year would you turn the time back to? 2002 ((((((((((((=

7.If you could change your age, what age would you change yourself into? 2 or 3

----About secrets----

1.Do you have a crush?

(=

2.Is he/she in your friends list

(=

3.how long has he/she been your crush?

(=

4.what is first letter of his/her name?

(=

5.Name a song that you want to personally sing in front of him/her?

(=

6.In your whole life, Have you ever puffed the magic dragon?

??? -rolls eyes

7.When was the last time you got drunk?

can't remember

...oops ! i think it's this...

LAYER ONE: What is your..?
-- Name: eleanor
-- Birth date: 21st january 1988
-- Birthplace: mount e or a? lol
-- Current Location: singapore, in hougang, my home
-- Eye Color: brown
-- Hair Colour: dark brown
-- Height: 166
-- Right handed or Left handed: rightie
---------------------------------------------
LAYER TWO:
-- Heritage: chinese
-- Weakness: loves to eat but hate to grow fat
-- Biggest fears: -shrugs
-- Your perfect pizza: pepperoni & hawaiian
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: be happy and see people around me happy
----------------------------------------------
LAYER THREE: Your…?
-- Most overused phrase(s): many
-- Thoughts first waking up: i want to get back to sleep
-- Best physical feature: i'm ugly and fat
-- Usual bedtime: 10?
-- Most missed memory: 2002
-------------------------------------------------
LAYER FOUR: Preferences..?
-- Pepsi or Coke: coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: MOS BURGER, ok, not in the list
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or Latte:latte. any
-------------------------------------------------
LAYER FIVE: Do you…?
-- Smoke: social
-- Sing: seldom
-- Take a shower every day: durh !
-- Have a crush(es): (=
-- Think you've been in love: -shrugs
-- Like high school: yes
-- Want to get married: -shrugs
-- Believe in yourself: guess so
-- Get motion sickness: no
-- Think you're attractive: no, like i've said, i'm ugly and fat
-- Think you're a health freak: no
-- Get along with your parents: occasionally
-- Like thunderstorms: yes
-- Play an instrument: no
-------------------------------------------------
LAYER SIX: In the past month, you’ve…?
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall: yes
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Shoplifted: no
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no
---------------------------------------
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married: 20 - 21
-- Numbers and Names of Childrens: 4 ! -shuts about names
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: under the sea or in an airplane or maybe not
-- How do you want to die: natural death PLEASE !
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? set up my own business
-------------------------------------------------
LAYER NINE: In a girl/boy, you would want…?
-- Best eye color: any
-- Best hair color: any
-- Short or long hair: short PLEASE !
-- Height: slightly shorter than me ! (((=
-- Weight: average
-- Best first date location: any, as long as both of us are present
------------------------------------------------
LAYER TEN: List the number of:
-- Drugs taken illegally: -shrugs
-- People trust with my life: -shrugs
-- CDs that I own: plenty
-- Piercings: 2
-- Tattoos: SOON PLEASE ! =(((
-- Times my name has appeared in the newspaper? none PLEASE !
-- Scars on my body: have you seen my knees? -shrugs count them YOURSELF
-- Things in my past that I regret: plenty

...ok, i promised this is really the LAST !...

Your High School : sjc

1. nickname in high school?

nor, nor loke, ner ner, nezha, lu ming ming, lu meng meng

2. best subject?

maths and science

5. worst subject?

chinese PLEASE ! humanities

6. a teacher you owe life lessons to?

mrs elan (((=

7. a teacher you wanna kick in the ass?

chaoster ! who doesn't right!?

8. Describe sec 1 year:

great, had a bestie, judith ! :D

9. sec 2 year:

year with the MOST trouble BUT with great fun and great company ! sec 2E's still the best. (((= and of course sweet memories (((((((((((((((((=

10. sec 3 year:

great with 3D and bandits*78 was BORN ! (:

11. sec 4 year:

still getting through :D

12. your best friend was?

changes

13. your worst friend was?

none actually

14. cafeteria food sucked?

NO ! yummy, especially MALAY STALL ! :D

15. most hilarious school rule?

EVERYONE NEEDS TO WEAR A HAIRBAND ! haha?

16. wore uniforms?

durh !

17. how was the prom?

coming soon !

18. who was prom king and queen?

wait till prom comes

19. any achievements?

guess so

20. were you popular?

yes, in a farkeengbad way PLEASE !

21. best song that reminds you of high sch?

many ! haha, sec 2E, ALWAYS SANG while walking to the next class. sigh, those were the times (=

22. unforgettable high school crush?

NONE PLEASE ! CRUSHES, OUT OF SCHOOL ! can't stand school people -barfs

23. most embarrassing moment?

friends wanted to eat at LONG JOHN SILVER, but i said "they going JOHN LITTLE to eat !" ok, everybody stared and laughed at me

24. memory you'd like to forget about high school:

the time when friends and i quarrelled, tsk !

25. best memory?

year 2002 ((((((((((((((((((((((=

26. any regrets?

plenty

27. would you like your "future child" to attend ur high skool?

NO PLEASE !

i told you ! :D

i miss you.

2004-06-20T15:02:00.000+08:00

SOMETHING'S SCARING ME.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT IS.
BUT IT'S DRAWING NEARER EVERYDAY.
I CAN FEEL IT, IT'S COMING NEARER.
I'M SO AFRAID IT'LL MAKE ME FALL.
TELL ME WHAT TO DO.
I FEEL THE PRESSURE.
I FEEL THE PAIN.
I FEEL THE PRICKLING IN MY HEART.
IT'S SO SCARY !
-covers self

OK, TELL ME ELEANOR'S MAD PLEASE ! (=

you will never know what i am talking about, HAH.

2004-06-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

body's aching like hell !

went over to dex's palce yesterday to watch DVD !
the show's very sad; reminds me of so things.
left dex's place around 9; towards town.
dex met winnie & clayton at cine; -looks at dex & faints on the spot
went over heeren; waited for bj to end work.

went bq have our dinner; char siew rice ! -yum
then monks; yes again.
many things happened; don't want to mention.
saw digusting people; like again. -pukes
stayed till the end.

ohh, i lost my voice. -pouts

having so many body problems, yawns.
that's about it ! (=

don't worry about me, i'll be just fine without you.

2004-06-17T02:15:00.000+08:00

RIPPED THIS OFF FRIENDSTER ! (=

1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?

--- AQUARIUS -FROWNS

2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?

--- "TAKEN" )=

3. IF TAKEN, BY WHO?

--- THAT ONE )=

4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERIOUSLY HURT BY THE PERSON YOU LOVED?

--- DURH !

5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON IF YOU TURNED SUICIDAL?

--- DON'T WORRY, I WON'T TURN SUICIDAL. (=

6. IS SUICIDE REALLY KILLING YOURSELF?

--- NOPE, JUST RUNNING AWAY FROM YOUR PROBLEMS. (=

7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?

--- BOTH ! (=

8. PREFER CUTE/IDIOT OR SMART/UGLY?

--- SMART/UGLY(THEY HAVE BRAINS, THEY CAN BECOME HANDSOME TOO, GRINS !)

9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATIONSHIP WiTH YOUR
BF/GF/CRUSH?

--- NO ! BEING IGNORED EVERY NOW AND THEN ! -POUTS

10. YOU'D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:

--- THAT ONE WHO MAKES ME SMILE !

11. WHAT DO YOU LIKE DOING WHEN YOU'RE DEPRESSED?

--- ACT HAPPY !

12. CHEERFUL OR BORING?

--- BOTH ! (=

13. DESCRIBE A PERFECT DATE.

--- WHAT IS A DATE TO ME ANYWAY? SIGH.

14. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY
IS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THINK?

--- NOPE, BECAUSE IT'S NOT PINK OR PURPLE OR BROWN ! BUT BLUE'S MY FAV. COLOUR ! GRINS, SO I WON'T MIND ! (=

15. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?

--- EXCUSE ME? WANT TO ASK HOW MANY TIMES!? LOOK AT QNS 4 !

16. WILL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAIN?
WITH LOVE???

--- DURH ! BECAUSE I JUST DID ! DAMN !

17. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?

--- DURH ! THOUGH HATE IS TOO STRONG A WORD, BUT I'VE FORGIVEN THAT PERSON. (=

18. DO YOU DO ANYTHING WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP
WITH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?

--- NOPE, JUST RESPECT THEIR DECISION.

19. GIVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRIBES WHAT
YOU'RE FEELiNG NOW.

--- SADDDDDDDDDDDDDLONELYYYYYYYYYY(IT'S STILL ONE WORD) !

20. DO YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF?

--- NOT REALLY, IN GOD PERHARPS.

21. EVER PHYSICALLY HURT YOURSELF?

--- YUPP !

22. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?

--- YUPP ! CURSED MYSELF !

23. MOTTO IN LIFE.

--- BE HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS(YEA RIGHT) !

24. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELINGS ABOUT A
BEST FRIEND FROM THE OPPOSITE GENDER?

--- YUPP ! MY BESTIE ! OOPS !

25. IF YES, WHAT DID YOU DO ABOUT IT? IF NO,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

--- IGNORE ! (=

26. IS FAME & MONEY THE MOST IMPORTANT THINGS IN
YOUR LIFE?

--- NOPE ! MY HEALTH IS. (=

27. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN
YOU'RE SLEEPING?

--- YUPP ! I KICK. GRINS ! (=

28. ARE YOU DIFFICULT TO WAKE UP?

--- YUPP ! I'M A PEEG. -POINTS TO SIDE

29. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?

--- EVERYDAY!? DURH !

30. ARE YOU CONVENIENT WITH THAT?

--- DEFINITELY ! (=

31. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?

--- NOPE, NOONE'S PERFECT ! NOT EVEN THE ONE I'M IN LOVE WITH, HAH ! (=

I HAD NOTHING TO DO ! YAWNS ! (=

if you only knew.

2004-06-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

I'M BURNT; CRIES !

sentosa; dex, huilin, bj, qiaoying, diana, ryan and andrew.
grins, there was sun and water !
WHOOPS ! (=

WAS LATE TO MEET DIANA & DEX AT KOVAN STATION; SORRY ! :||
MADE QIAOYING WAIT ALONE AT HARBOUR FRONT STATION; SORRY !

that silly ryan, she actually took a bus down fron sengkang to kovan!?
when she could easily take a TRAIN and meet her INSIDE !
HELLO!? silly her.

"DID I JUST EMBARRASSED HER!?" grins.

met huilin in the train & headed towards harbour front !
waited for that "aunty" bj to come; late ALSO !
ate at HAWKER CENTRE; FINALLY MY CHICKEN RICE ! :D

GOT SCOLDING FROM CARRIE ! =(
SADDDDD !

REACHED THE BEACH and wanted to THROW DIANA DOWN.
but she ANGRY; pout !
so BORING cos' the sun was scorching; DIES !

well, played with sand; GRINS ! -points below

BUD !!! COME BACK QUICK ! =(

went to bathe and headed for town; MALUATED !
goodness, in tee and quarts; UGLY PLEASE !
well, nevermind, came from BEACH WHAT !
ate tori-q, crystal jade's HOTDOG bun & CHICKEN WING and TAKO-PACHI !

looked for carrie at heeren.
I AM NICE, I SUGGESTED OK !
we'll go another day :D
then headed home.
SUPER TIRED; YAWNS !

well, really had fun with these love ones.
thanks alot for the fun though ! (=

many regrets, but loving you was one thing i didn't regretted.

2004-06-14T02:15:00.000+08:00

i found a reason in living on.
a reason in changing myself.
and there is only one reason, you.
you changed my life, you changed me.
you made me a better person, you made me live on.
you showered me with what i lack of.
show me the right path to take, guide me through every obstacle.
and being able to love you is enough.
i don't hope for anything in return from you.
as long as you're happy, you can be sure, i'll keep smiling.

you are the reason.

2004-06-13T02:15:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU

dex brudder
carrie partner
bj boiboi
huilin brudder's niece
jenny boiboi's friend

for accomanying to have tau huey when all of you were so tired !
love all :D

you will be the one, always.

2004-06-12T15:02:00.001+08:00

last night was a craze !

met dex, rhonda and huilin at far east !
wanted to GOSSIP PLEASE, about some GIRL(lol).
rhonda went off.

then went over to heeren, wait for bj to end work.
met carrie at cine.
headed for plasma !
ordered 2 jugs.
then some idiot(bj) decided to head for monks !

ohh, we were like some CHEAPOS(winks at carrie) !

yupp, split cabs.
reached monks(BORING) !
DRINK AGAIN LA!? goodness.
crowd wasn't that bad la?
saw some D-I-S-G-U-S-T-I-N-G people from school(total turn-off) !
like whatever PLEASE.

ohh, did i mention?
i can NEVER be FULL.
ate lor mai gai :D
then saw her, sigh.
walked away of course :||
sat outside with huilin, pohyee and dp to GOSSIP(tsk !)!?

after monks, went GC with dex, bj & huilin.
ATE(yee meen) AGAIN :x
HEADED HOME !
-drops dead on bed

what a night to spend with these lovely people. :D
though many things were on my mind that distracted me.
but these people(dex, carrie, bj & huilin) made my day !
thank alot :D love all.
definitely, not forgetting RHONDA ! (:

2004-06-10T23:49:00.000+08:00

it's quite saddening.
lol !

2004-06-09T01:05:00.000+08:00

YOU want me to be HAPPY !?
i will BE !

2004-06-08T01:52:00.000+08:00

sigh.

2004-06-07T03:49:00.000+08:00

guess it's better this way.
hah. :D

2004-05-31T14:30:00.000+08:00

don't assume.
don't keep assuming.
don't make assumptions.
JUST STAY POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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2004-05-15T20:51:00.000+08:00

-using the dex language-

i ish varlie happy.
heh.
don't ask me vhat.
just varlie happy.

you ish making me varlie happy.

2004-05-08T19:05:00.000+08:00

you always appear differently, sigh.

i just hope you would not be taken for granted again.

2004-05-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

you make me ***.

i hope you really mean what you said.

2004-04-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

you are the cure to every pain in my heart.
you are the fire that melts my heart completely.
you are the one i choose to love, miss & need.
you are simply someone special.

you are mean! :P

2004-04-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

i seriously see no future.
hah, but well, it's ok.
i'm the willing party anyway.

you are damn idiot, you are MEAN, tsk!

2004-04-15T15:32:00.001+08:00

roar!
the day is boring.
i miss **you.

nothing can change the fact, i love you. ((:

2004-04-02T20:01:00.000+08:00

How Do I Live

How do I get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
what kind of life would that be?
OoOoOoO I..
I need you in my arms
Need you to hold, your my world, my heart, my soul
If you ever leave, baby you would take away everything
good in my life and tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breath without you, if you ever go
How do I ever , ever survive?
How do I, how do I oh how do I live

Without you, there'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life there'd be no
world left for me and I ... baby I dont know what I would do
I'd be lost if I lost you, if you ever leave baby you would
take away everything real in my life
and tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breath without you, if you ever go
How do I ever , ever survive?
How do I, how do I oh how do I live

Please tell me baby
how do I go on
if you ever leave
baby you would take away everything
need you with me
baby dont you know that your everything good in my life
and tell me now

How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breath without you, if you ever go
How do I ever , ever survive?
How do I, how do I oh how do I live(fading...)

How do I even get through till today, without you in my life?

2004-03-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

Will you love me tomorrow?

Tonight you're mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
But will you love me tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure
Can I believe the magic of your sighs
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken
You say that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the morning sun

I'd like to know that your love
Is love that I can be sure of
So tell me now and I will not ask you again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Happy Together

Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night
It's only right
To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight
So happy together
If I should call you up
Invest a dime
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together

I can't see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together

I can't see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life

Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together

Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together

So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
So happy together
So happy together
So happy together

My only happiness is to have you back.

2004-02-26T16:15:00.000+08:00

Just a little bit more love.

Just as long as love's around.

I am here for you tonight.

I could lose my heart to you, if you don't turn and walk away.

Cos' the way I feel I might lose control and let you stay.

I could take you in my arms and never let go.

I could fall in love with you.

If I take the chance to let you know, my love is true.

Tomorrow will you want me still.

I should keep this to myself and never let you go.

For every single day I want you to know, I am always true to you.

So baby, let me in your arms.

Baby, you know I'm always here, just for you.

2004-02-15T02:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to all. ((:

Though we ain't together, I am really very glad you messaged me.

((:

Though it was just a simple "Happy Valentine's Day."

I didn't expect you to message me, but it really made my day.

I don't know what to say, but I am really thankful.

Baby, you are the sweetest already.

2004-01-21T02:15:00.000+08:00

It's my day and I wished you were to celebrate with me.

Sigh, though it didn't came true.

But I am really glad enough to receive your message.

Your words are enough to warm me up.

Grins, didn't expect you to wish me either.

Now that you're away, I miss you.

Hope you'll come back soon, then we can see each other.

Baby, I miss you.

2003-12-31T21:51:00.000+08:00

A day before we step into a new year.

Thinking back on the past.

Those things that happened, those things that I have done.

Been thinking about many stuffs, the year was a BAD one.

I'm gonna make sure, the NEW year's gonna be smooth sailing.

No worries, no hassles, it's all about O Levels.

WA HA, WA HA.

Eleanor's got to work hard in 2004.

Baby, I wished you were here to spend the special moment with me.

2003-12-25T15:02:00.000+08:00

There's nothing more I can say but a BIG THANKS.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL.

Baby, if you ever knew, I was glad you spend that moment with me.

2003-12-17T03:02:00.000+08:00

Sun's out and it was just another day.

I took a shower and went on my way.

I stopped at the usual place, had coffee and a pie.

When I turned to leave, I couldn't believe my eyes.

I saw you standing there, I didn't know what to say.

Without a word, we stood there face to face.

I was dying to hold you, but I couldn't bring myself to.

Baby, will you ever let me hold you?

2003-12-15T15:02:00.000+08:00

I'll always remember, the very day I met you.

It was late afternoon, we'd spent most of our time together.

It lasted forever, but it ended so soon.

You were all by yourself, on the beach bench, staring up at the dark grey sky.

In places no one will find all your deepest feelings.

Not even me anymore.

Baby, I'm missing you.

2003-12-13T03:02:00.000+08:00

We could read each others' mind, we'd never wanna be alone.

But those days are gone, now I want you so much.

The night is long and I need your touch.

Don't know what to say, never meant to feel this way

I don't wish to be alone tonight, I wanna feel you by my side.

Falling again & again, harder & harder each time.

What did you do that made me feel this way?

And when I hear your voice, I start to tremble.

Cos' I know I'll never have you.

Baby, you'll never know how much I love you.

2003-12-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

The touch of those hands.

The mesmerizing eyes.

The ever so captivating smile.

The you that will never leave me.

If only I could have you.

Baby, I want to be with you.

2003-12-09T00:30:00.000+08:00

The smile.

2003-12-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

Isn't better if you'd told me earlier?

So that I won't have to suffer.

Oh wells, it doesn't matter alot to me anymore.

Everything's over and I'm so glad it is. =D

Hopefully things on your side are fine now.

Hmm, guess I won't be blogging very often.

Nothing to update what!

Alright, shall wait till the next time I blog again.

I'm glad it's over, I'm glad I'm over you, I'm glad I made it through.

2003-12-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

I guess life's been great for me lately?

Am not under any stress or in depression mode.

Hurhur...

To say, I've put many things down as I've thought through it.

There's no point brooding over things which makes you upset.

No point to cry almost every night.

Why don't I just look at it in another point of view?

Maybe I'd felt much better, which I really do.

Life's simple & happier as long as you make it the way you want to.

You can choose not to be upset & be very happy.

But don't lie to yourself, that's no difference from being upset over the issue.

You'll end up asking yourself, why all these happen?

When you think the whole world is going against you, why not think that you are the one going against the world?

The world doesn't owe you a living, live it the way you want.

If there're words coming from others, don't be affected by it.

It's your life, you create it to be happy!

As for you, I won't deny I still feel for you as much as before.

But there's not point in hanging on, soon you'll hear rom me that I've forgotten you. =)

Look at life in another point of view, it ain't so bad after all.

ANYHOW...

ICE-CREAM

MAKES

LIFE

WORTH

A

LIVING.

Try having some of your favourite ice-cream when you're down, it makes you feel better. grins.

2003-11-25T13:17:00.000+08:00

Why are my instincts always right?

Can't they just be wrong for ONCE.

Why do these things have to upset me so much?

I hate to feel this way, I hate to react this way.

People say, "Ignorance is a Bliss."

I feel so right about this phrase.

I'd rather NOT know anything.

I'd rather I was kept in the DARK.

But I can't, I hate to lie to myself, the more I hate others to lie to me.

There're somethings that one really has to know.

And I've come to know things which I long wanted to know.

I'm really lost for I do not know how to react.

Now, I just want to forget you ASAP.

I don't wish to go any deeper anymore.

I wished you were out of my life, till the day I forget you.

I know I'm being very selfish here, but I really have no other choice anymore.

I don't know how to face you and I can't face you.

Cos' I ~~fucking~~ don't want to shed anymore tears for you.

~~I'm really starting to hate you, I'm sorry.~~

I do not want us to get any closer ever again.

2003-11-17T14:01:00.000+08:00

Time flies so quickly, sigh.

But how much do you know what is going on?

Tell me if you can explain the situation.

I myself don't even know what's happening.

Hah, what a funny thing.

Someone can actually change so much just within 2 weeks.

But it doesn't matter anymore, I am too numbed to even feel.

So much to say yet there's no way I could express myself.

Be it through words or action, most probably I would just blow up.

Never seem to be able to control my temper, that's bad isn't it?

Sigh, come what may.

~~20th October 2003 - 02nd November 2003~~

2003-11-11T10:08:00.000+08:00

I just want back "those" times.

When you received the **th star, that's when I will forget you.

2003-11-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

Love doesn't need possession.

Don't bother.

2003-11-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

I wished you knew.

Would you give the answers to my questions?

2003-11-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

I have had enough of everything.

Guess I will stick to what I planned to do at first.(maybe not)

2003-10-26T15:17:00.000+08:00

I don't know what you want, I don't know what's on your mind.

I don't wish to guess, I want you to tell me.

I want to know what do I really mean to you, what am I to you in your heart.

What do you mean by those words you said ?

Do you really mean it or is it an indirect answer to that question ?

Tell me if you need to, don't hide it.

I'll give you time if you need them, tell me you need time.

It is not a must that you have to tell me, but if it's necessary, do tell me.

I just hope that you know the you I have been referring to is you.

And I will definitely wait and be right here for you, no matter how long.

Even if you'd told me we won't end up together, I will still love you no matter what.

2003-10-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

I'm glad with the way things are between us now. (no, we're not together, not at all.)

I won't be asking for more cos' if it's meant to be, the more will come one day.

The future of ours will come or not, depends on fate.

But somehow, I won't dare to look ahead.

Since I am not asking for more now, so we shall let time prove everthing I guess.

I'll be right here for you, always.

And, I will wait for you, definitely, no matter how long. iLu**

I love you cos' of who you are, don't ask me why I chose you, I just love you.

2003-10-19T15:29:00.000+08:00

You told me you don't, how am I to believe you ?

Sigh, I want to believe you too.

But there are also other resources which are stopping me to.

I want to give you my trust, but it's hard.

It's not that I don't trust you, it's just I need time to prove everything.

Words don't prove everything, guess I shall just wait and see what happens.

But if it's true you still do, I wish you all the best and may happiness be with you.

And no matter what happens, I'll be right here, for you. iLu**

I choose to believe you, so please let this truth be true. I don't wish you to lie to me.

2003-10-18T14:11:00.000+08:00

Now I know the truth, I guess I should just step back.

I'm praying and wishing the both of you happiness.

But somehow, I am worried.

Don't ask me why, I won't be able to tell you.

I just hope your choice is right, and you'll be happy with her.

It's true, things don't turn out the way we want them to be.

But choices shape our destiny, it can turn out the way we want it to be.

If we have the courage and the determination to strive for it.

We can do it somehow.

And I guess, I belong to lack-of-courage group and without determination kind.

Hah, but it doesn't matter anymore now.

As long as you're happy, I will be just glad to be by your side to catch you if you fall.

I'll be here for you, I promise.

2003-10-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's better you take it I never said it to you before.

Things are all so different.

You know, I feel so stupid now.

I've been lying to myself all these while.

It was all lies, the lies that were never true.

What is wrong with me ?

I just feel like letting it all out, but how am I supposed to do that ?

How I wish these feelings just come and go as I want them to.

SIgh, I feel really silly about falling for you.

But there's nothing I can do now, I just hope I can forget this ASAP.

I can't afford to go through these much pain anymore.

I can't afford to and I don't wish to either.

Giving you up is something I won't want to do, but...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY THUNDER ! ! !

2003-10-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

~~Everything's ~~NOT~~ right WITH~~OUT~~ you. iLu**~~

HAPPY

BIRTHDAY

DEX

BROTHER ! ! !

2003-10-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

Tell me it's just a dream.

A dream of falling in love with you, a reality that was never true.

It's just an illusion of us, isn't it ?

We are created through dreams, aren't we ?

The us that was never meant to be.

I knew it right from the start, but stubbornly, I didn't step back.

You warned me about everything, yet I insisted on going forward.

It's all so difficult to turn back now.

I wished you could step into my world, the world where our love will start.

But I guess, it's never gonna be you, never will we be a reality of this dream.

I promise not to bother you with my love, cos' I don't want to lose you, even as a friend.

You mean too much to me, that i'll have to give you up.

I swear it's gonna be hard on me this period, but with determination, i'm gonna give you up and put you down completely.

I can't go at my own pace but to force myself.

I hate doing this but it leaves me with no other choice.

I truly hope you'll find someone to share your happiness with.

The story of you and I will only stay as friends.

Friends which we'll always be, I PROMISE!

[ 0 2 ]

I don't wish to shed anymore tears for you.

2003-10-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

If you really want to know, I've put her down completely.

It may seem so impossible, but it's true.

It was because of you when I decided to put her down.

I didn't know my feelings for you could make me come up with such a decision.

You may not believe me, but I hope you will believe me for how I feel towards you.

And now all I wish for is that we can be together someday.

But will that day ever come? Sigh, I doubt so.

I really do wish for you to step into my life, but for now, I shall just let nature take its course.

Whether you will ever feel for me, it's for you to feel, I can't force you to like me.

But I hope, if you really do feel something for me, you will tell me.

At least, I know falling for you wasn't wrong right from the start.

iLu* you know who you are. =)))

But afterall, i'm gonna give you up no matter what, you know it best why.

2003-10-06T02:20:00.000+08:00

Who knows what will happen in future. * * s i g h

2003-10-05T19:50:00.000+08:00

Heh heh, I know I haven't been blogging for like days.

Alright, doubt I will be blogging for the next few days too.

Exams are starting like tomorrow? Got to pull up my socks for now.

**growls

I haven't done my art research, sick mann.

**arghs

Should be burning midnight oil tonight, sigh.

No choice what, hurhur.

Hmms, what happened the last few days.

**thinks hard

[ 2 n d & 3 r d O c t o b e r ]

Hurhur... Ohh, nothing much happened la.

Daily routine I guess, school home.

But went Airport to study on the 3rd with Dex, PohYee, Jasmine and Diana.

Let around 10+, reached home around 11+.

LOL. Didn't really study, taught Dex and Jasmine math.

=)))

[ 4 t h O c t o b e r ]

Met up with Jasmine to get Judith and Jia Xin Bithrday present.

Ohh, went PS to look or their presents.

Then met Diana at Serangoon station at around 620.p.m.

Took 103 down Jalan Kayu to meet Carrie, Dex and Thunder.

Ohh, my prata!!!

**grins

Shared 2 Mutarbaks (wrong spelling I guess) with Jasmine and Diana.

Carrie, Dex and Thunder don't know ate what.

They ordered, Chocolate prata, Garlic prata, Cheese prate, can't remember already.

Hurr... Thunder felt like puking after that anyway.

Hmms, left the place and we stood at God-knows-where and started talking about Mr Bean.

Ohh well, shoot us please.

LOL. **diess

Then we accompanied Carrie to AMK and sent her off.

LOL, yes, we just went to AMK to send Carrie off.

Then we rot around AMK!?

**diess

Nowhere to go what!

Suggest suggest suggest, decided to head for Diana's place.

So took a 136 down, on the way at my place, we alighted.

LOL, I suggested to head for my house instead,

Hurr... Diana and Jasmine stayed till 12 +++.

As for Dex and Thunder, they stayed over.

Yeah, chat till the wee hours of the morning.

Haha, 5+ I guess?

**shrugs

Then we woke around 12+++ earlier today.

Whoo! I didn't have my 10 hours of sleep.

**pouts

Then we went out around 3+++ 4 to meet Diana and get Dex's storybook back.

Has Yoshi's and headed for EPB to get art stuff.

Then we headed for our own homes, hurr...

Thunder went ChinaTown to meet her mom.

Came home, slept awhile but couldn't take the pain in my teeth, so I woke up.

My teeth still hurts now, arghs.

It's ok, shall tolerate!

**sigh

Alright, I guess that's about it.

Shall return to this thing maybe during 15 - 16 October?

LOL, exams what.

**roar

[ 0 2 ]

Maybe you are the one who can really make me put her down completely.

2003-10-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hey look here mann, those "kaypo" ones.

I AM OVER ROY.

Get this clear, I am OVER HER.

And even if I still do feel for her, it's NONE OF YOUR ~~FUCKING~~ BUSINESS.

I know it best, I am over her, means I AM.

For goodness sake, get your facts clear before you want to comment.

I'm ~~fucking~~ sick and tired all of these shit.

It has already been more than a year, what ~~fucking~~ rights do you have to think that i still like her?

Don't you people have brains!? Do you want me to call your bitches!? DAMN!

Ohh, or is it just because my good friend is with her now that you all have to think this way?

NO, I CANNOT SAY I TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ROY, COS' THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE.

She still lives in my heart, yes she does, but as a FRIEND.

Get this clear, a friend.

I'm happy with what I have now, friends like before.

I don't need your comments to my good friend.

Moreover, I don't wish my good friend to feel ~~fucking~~ bad about this.

I want to see my friend being happy with Roy with no worries or hassles.

Please stop all these shit la k, ~~FUCK~~!

You all don't want to care about my feelings, please think for my friend?

I freaking hell don't want anything to clash between me and her.

I do cherish this friend of mine alot, i just don't wish to lose her in anyway cos' of love.

I just hope those of you giving comments on me still liking Roy, to shut up and worry about yourself.

My good friend and I don't need those comments of yours.

GET THIS CLEAR, I'M FUCKING OVER ROY AND SHE'S HAPPY WITH MY FRIEND NOW.

SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING BIG MOUTHS UP AND STOP COMMENTING.

You people know who you are.

I will be most thankful.

I'm not angry, not even a single bit.

I'm just utterly disappointed with some people.

2003-09-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to put this, sigh.

But if I were given a chance to choose, my answer would be obvious.

**dies

And again, I would choose to be free.

Isn't it better to be free than to have so much worries.

**sigh

Just kill me please.

**stressed

How I wish I don't have to be stressed over such things.

Damn... If only you were here.

Where are you? **sigh

[ 0 2 ]

I just want to be free from everything.

2003-09-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

I'm happy with what I have now.

I don't wish to ask for more.

Isn't it good that we're like that now?

**grins

It felt so first time, and it's really great.

I hope this will continue.

=)))

Don't wish anything to affect this friendship.

Alright, going to meet Dex and Jasmine for dinner.

Asked Thunder, but she said it was a little too late.

Well, nevermind.

Meeting them around 6+.

ROAR!

At Heartland AGAIN, just went there yesterday?

LOL. **winks at jasmine and diana

Tskk...

Seriously I have got NOTHING to blog about, so I shall blog another time.

[ 0 2 ]

I miss you finally, I wished you knew I am missing you.

2003-09-25T21:58:00.000+08:00

It's too late.

I am not sure of it, but if it's me.

It's just too late.

=)))

I'm bored!

Exams are drawing nearer and nearer.

I have bearly 2 weeks to revise.

Roughly around a week or so to do so.

Tskk!

Got to start putting in more effort, or else I won't be able to get a promotion to Sec 4.

**sigh

It's kind of hard to concentrate now, mind filled with lots of troubles.

Stressed with things that are happening around me.

Tell me what to do mann?

I myself don't even know how to handle these situations.

But somehow, I am gonna try my very best and put in all the effort I can.

You're gonna make it, Eleanor Loke!

**grins

Well well, shall blog another time.

[ 0 2 ]

M y h e a r t i s a e a s e , f i n a l l y .

2003-09-22T18:07:00.000+08:00

Try this.

NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Eleanor Loke HuiMing

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Eleanor:
You have a need to communicate and express yourself. You are inclined to over intellectualize, and hate to be misquoted. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions.

Loke:
You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You need to learn flexibility. You have good recuperative abilities. You are determined. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood.

HuiMing:
You are an 11th hour person, always succeeding just in the nick of time. The lesson of money is prominent in your life. You are soft-hearted with a charitable nature. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are always involved with projects and things to do. You need to learn to give and receive love for love's sake. You have a need to be assured of affection. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job.

Quite true I guess. =/

2003-09-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

Call me a bitch please, sigh.

2003-09-17T14:01:00.001+08:00

I'm feel shit now.

Sigh, I don't know what to do.

I am confused.

I can't deny I like you and I really do like you, alot.

I can't afford to suffer anymore heartbreaks.

If you really like someone else, I don't mind giving up.

As long as you are happy, that is all that makes me contented.

I will tell you how I feel for you, but not now.

I don't wish this to affect our friendship.

I'm keeping it to myself, and I hope somehow you will understand in future.

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Y o u

a r e

j u s t

t h e

w a n t

o n e

y o u

t o

f e e l

b e

f o r ,

b l e s s e d

y e t

w i t h

h a p p i n e s s

d o n ' t

a l w a y s ,

k n o w

a n d

i f

n e v e r

y o u

h a d

d o

t o

f e e l

f o r .

u p s e t .

2003-09-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

Reply(s)

Yiting: HELLO! LOL, yepp. Go where also will meet, tskk! Take care too, love ya. =)))

Jayvern: Yepp, I am ok! Yeahs, you la, I don't even know you nick online now!? LOL, stop changing! Anyway, take care too la! =)

Carrie: I guess it has cease somehow.

Airen: =((( Aiyo, you don't know fly till where, want to find you also can't. TSKK!!! How to flirst with you? LOL. No la, don't worry, I am fine. =) I will take care abd try to cheer up too. Hmms, yeahs, will look for you if I need someone's ear, thanks. Your Ai Ren loves you too! =P.

Dex: LOL, what lazy? I really have nothing to blog, I don't see the need what! You just saw me yesterday, BUT... I miss you too! If only we were real brothers and sisters. Hah, silly me.

Just want to thank those who stood by me on Friday, I really appreciate it.

Some of you talked to me, and it has really knocked some sense into me.

Now I am awake from my dream, I am in no pain anymore.

Thanks all, especially, Roy(for the face-to-face talk), Carrie, Thunder, Veron, Timmy, RuiPing, Leon, Kaden, Ed and I really can't recall already, really want to say a BIG BIG thanks and a sorry for troubling you guys.

2003-09-12T13:22:00.000+08:00

12 12 12 12 12 12 12 12 12 12 12 12 12 12

Yes, 14 times.

Sigh, don't ask me why.

I'm going out later, hee.

Clubbing for me? Bad me.

Sigh, like who cares already.

I don't know what to do anymore, I just want to forget everything.

Sigh, I need to flirt with my additional math homework again.

Yes, I have not complete my homework yet, I am so dead.

Alright, that's about it.

[ - - - - ]

C e a s e

a l l

p a i n ,

f r e e

m e

f r o m

e v e r y t h i n g .

2003-09-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

BAD BAD BAD DAY.

Don't want to talk about it, had a STUPID, SENSELESS, RETARDED quarrel with her.

Rooster Ed: Yeahs, thanks mann. =))) Anyway, ya take care too yeahs.

FeiMao: Haha, yeahs! =)))

Anyway, went cycling at ECP.

Dex didn't want to cycle at first, but still did.

See, you didn't fall you chicken. =P

Accompanied Dex to town to have her hair cut.

Nice. =)))

That's about it.

Need to flirt with my additional math homework AGAIN.

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I

d o n ' t

k n o w ,

d o n ' t

q u e s t i o n

m e

a n y m o r e .

I ' m

s o

l o s t ,

s i g h .

2003-09-07T14:15:00.002+08:00

I want to return it to you.

[ 0 2 1 5 ]

= / / /

2003-09-06T13:10:00.000+08:00

I MISS THE PRETTY CARRIE PARTNER!

airen: Hehe, ok la. I will study de! =))) I also hope I can promote to sec 4.

[ 0 2 1 5 ]

/ / g r i n s

y o u ' r e

b a c k

a n d

i ' m

g l a d ,

a t

l e a s t

h o p i n g

y o u

w o u l d

c o m e

b a c k

s o o n

b e c a m e

r e a l i t y .

t h a n k

G o d .

2003-09-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

//yawns

Yes, ask me why am I here?

I skipped school due to incomplete project I have to pass up today.

ROAR!

Actually also getting my result slip today, but heck!

I already know what subjects I pass and fail.

Holidays' just next week, which means exams are drawing nearer, sigh.

Wondering how am I gonna get through this sec 3 and promote up to sec 4.

Sigh, don't want to think so much also, study and hardworking is the answer.

Ohh ya, maybe I will be leaving for Malaysia next week?

LOL, depends on my mother, see if she wants to go to KL.

SHOPPING! =))) //grins

Well well, going out later!

Meeting Diana, Lex and Kristle at Hougang Station.

At like around 6!? TSKK!!!

I swear I need to get out of the damn house early!?

ROAR!!!

Dad asked me to be home by 9, but do you think I will be?

LOL, don't care!

My stupid IE is like SO down.

It's taking its own sweet time to load.

Well, I need to flirt with my A math already!

Lots of homework, sigh.

Practice makes ~~perfect~~ it better.

[0215]

I

m i s s

y o u ,

s i g h.

C o m e

b a c k

s o o n.

2003-09-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

ROAR!!!

Poh a.k.a DS(grins, ask Dex what's DS =P): ROAR!!! LOL, not R O Y! Hee, yeahs! Certainly had fun with you and of course the rest! TSKK! Yepp, meet up soon, guess this Saturday? LOL. Take care, hugss.

Airen: Ayee, you'll shy? LOL. Ok la, hehe. Anyway, thanks for dropping yeah! =))) //pats Don't be sad even if you're not! LOL, you know what I mean. //winks

Sigh, had a really bad day today, don't wish to talk about it.

Hmms, looking so foward to this Saturday(grins).

Hopefully, God will bless us. =)))

I feel so... URGH about my Biology Test.

I've always been passing the tests, but this time I failed!

Cos' of that gawddamn teacher(Eugene Simon), he marked our papers and he FAILED all of us!

ROAR!!! Fail never mind, fail until to the extent of 1-digit failing marks!

SO RIDICULOUS!!! When I compared my answers to my other friends, we've got the same answers but marks were NOT given to me, but was given to my friend!!!

WHAT THE HELL!!! NOT FAIR!!!

ROAR ROAR ROAR! ROAR that chicken mcnugget!

Other than Biology, I failed my A math but passed the rest of my test!

Tskk, which makes me HAPPY! =)))

Alright, need to flirt with my math now.

Lots of lots of lots of math to flirt with, I can just zoom to sleep!

ROAR, so many homework!

[0215]

Y o u

a r e

o u t

o f

t o w n

a n d

I

g u e s s

I

w o n ' t

b e

a b l e

t o

s e e

y o u.

2003-08-30T00:17:00.000+08:00

FeiMao: Yepp, good. MUST study real hard. Hmms, alright, I am fine with anything, but most importantly now is that you must study. //naggy Hehe, yeahs, will take care, you too yeah! =)))

Why do I love you?

Why do I trust you?

Why do I wait for you?

Why do I have to do all these for you?

Why do I have to be like this because of you?

Can you give me the answers to these questions?

Can you? Can you? I DON'T THINK SO!

So now get out of my sight before I lose my patience and **** you upside down.

[0215] Why? Can you? Sigh...

2003-08-29T14:15:00.000+08:00

Christal: Hee, guess I will be seeing you today ba! //grins take care and miss ya! =D

P - Bung: Tskk! Forever stealing my strawberries. LOL, eating real ones? Jealous? Why should I be? =)

Yayiee!!! Teachers' Day performance was GREAT!

Ulitmate FUN! //giggles

My class did well and was praised by many teachers!!!

Was really overjoyed, as teachers joined in to cheer with US!

And now... my voice is like so "zhao xia!" Haha.

Like whatever, best teachers' day I ever had! =)))

Really proud of the class today! Hee.

Hmms, I think I will blog tonight again. LOL.

I want to sleep!!!

Well well, meeting Carrie and Dex later!

Hehe, I missed them! =)))

[0215]

I

h a v e

a

s u d d e n

u r g e

t o

s e e

y o u

a n d

s o

I

c a n

s h a r e

m y

j o y

w i t h

y o u.

2003-08-28T01:00:00.000+08:00

Finally, I am done with my English Project! =)))

I'm having aches all over, tired.

=///

Christal: Don't worry, I won't resort to drugs, just a passing remark.

P de Bung: Nahh, you can take the strawberries. I won't take drugs. =)))

Hee, of course! It's Bandits *78! Haha.

Brother: Nahh, I won't take drugs. Don't worry, I know taking drugs won't solve the problem. =)))

I'll be strong, I promise I will be. And of course I do care for you too and love you as much as you do.

Ginny: LOL, but I miss you more than you miss me! Hee, I am serious! Yepp, really got to meet up soon. Haven't seen you

for like AGES and of course, I still love you as much as before! =)))

Partner: What's FYI? LOL, yes! I know drugs are stupid, so am I! LOL, but I don't take drugs! =DDD

Hee... I know! Friday's just TOMORROW! LOL. =)))

Ohh!!! My class did get in for the teacher's day performance!

YEAH YEAH YEAH! LOL. =PPP

Super duper happy, first time in the 3 years I have been in SJC, my class got through the audition!

WHOOHOO!!! BANDITS *78, "YEW RAWK"!

Having a full-dress rehersal tomorrow, hee.

I'm all so excited about Friday! LOL.

Silly me? Hee, but it's ok!

Well well, was pulling a Goddamn long face from morning till afternoon in school.

Nahh, wasn't in a very good mood, sigh.

Just didn't feel like mixing with my friends in a big group, maybe 1 or 2 is fine.

Being in a group is not my kind, don't want to feel neglected by friends.

As far as some of you know, why do I need friends so much.

Yes, you brother and partner. Think the both of you should know.

Hmms, but was fine after school.

School ended as usual, went to meet Dex, PohYee and Cassandra (pardon me if I got her name wrong).

Asked them over to my place, sat down, watched tv, talk, played daidee (felt so chalet, lol).

They left around 4+ so Dex and I decided to head for Compass Point.

Had Macs and bought the "The Dog" toy.

Hah, for my buddy, I know she likes "The Dog."

Then, RuiPing called and met up with her.

Asked me some questions, tskk! Silly her.

Anyway, she was on her way to meet her classmates at the HDB flats opposite school.

So Dex and I so-called "tag" along, accompanied her all the way to school.

Well, left after a while. Sat cab AGAIN!

That brother! LOL.

Started on my project once I came home and I do until now, then I was done with it!

Thank God!

Alright, I off to the bathroom and then to my bed! =DDD

[0215]

T e l l

m e

i t ' s

n o t

t r u e

t h e n

a t

l e a s t

m y

h e a r t

a n d

m i n d

w i l l

b e

a t

e a s e.

2003-08-26T20:07:00.000+08:00

It's the 26th again, sigh.

Feeling so "xin ku" for the whole day, didn't know what to do.

Fuck this shit! I lost the Goddamn tripod which belongs to Miss Teh.

I swear I am going to get HELL from her tomorrow, sigh.

Whatever, forget it. I seriously can't be bothered anymore.

Let her scold/nag all she wants, I really don't know what to do anymore.

I want to go on drugs, to take all my pain away.

I know it's really stupid, but I really have no other ways to ease my pain anymore.

I'm really tired, but I keep trying, and why am I doing this?

Feeling so stupid to do all this, please let me off, I am begging.

I'm going on my knees to ask for freedom, I really need it.

But it's nowhere to be found, I hate it.

Stay away from me, I need to be alone.

No matter what you do or say, won't help.

So shut the **** up and just get lost before I lose my patience.

Anyway, had teacher's day audition today.

Our class band is called the "Bandits *78". =DDD

Well, Kristle, Thea, PoZhi, Joanna and Beryl did a rock song "All the Small Things".

Aww... It was really great!

The theme was something like "Threads of Love".

Why chose this song?

Cos' threads are made up of all the small little things.

Ohh, PoZhi came up with this in less than 5 minutes, great ain't she?

I guess we got in and are performing on teachers' day!?

Yayiee!!! *does the 3 cheers

3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for 3D

Huga Saga Huga Saga Huga Saga Hu

3 cheers and 3 cheers and 3 cheers for Bandits *78

Huga Saga Huga Saga Huga Saga Hu

Last cheer and last cheer and last cheer for Mrs Ho

Huga Saga Huga Saga Huga Saga Hu

Yeah yeah, as if anyone can see this.

Blahh!!! That's about today! =)))

[0215]

I

w i s h e d

y o u

w e r e

h e r e

t o

t e l l

m e

i t ' s

a l r i g h t

a n d

t o

s h a r e

m y

j o y

w i t h

m e

2003-08-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

My eyes was caught by your attention

as I spotted you the very first time we met

It felt like as if I was walking on my little toes which were close to floating

My stomach filled with butterfiles feeling like I was dreaming

Counting the clouds till I was on cloud nine

I've never felt like this before and I knew I was gonna stay up there for long

So why don't we get together and fly to where we'll be together and never apart again

You hands will find their way to fit into mine

and we will be flying to take on the world

You fell halfway through as your hands slipped out of mine

You gave up at that very moment

and so you never gave us any chances to do it once again

I felt so heavy suddenly and fell off from above

The promise that you'll be there to catcch my fall was broken

Falling with a loud thud standing there motionlessly

I can't accept that we'd tried to fly up there together

Though your hands has found their way to another I felt as happy

The least I knew was that there is a pillar of support for you

and there you'll be together with the other half to finish the journey

And because I don't have you anymore I'll never be able to reach heaven

So I will be watching you from above and be sure you're doing fine

to watch you completing this long and winding journey

[0215] ~~I wished I never had the heart to love, yet~~ I helplessly fell in love with you.

2003-08-24T19:20:00.000+08:00

Finally, I am done with Jasmine and Diana's blog.

Please spare me! I need a break! LOL.

Tskk, I will be doing up Dex's one on Wednesday!

Diana's blog screwed up and I had a hard time saving it.

Tskk! //aching all over

Hmms, brother went back camp already.

Hehs, had my dinner, now I am so bored.

Think after this entry, I am of to my bathroom!

Feeling so sticky all over. //eewww

Got to do my homework too! //pulls the-already-very-less hair

Blahh! Alright, I shall blog tomorrow!

*//- [0215] It's not that I can't accept you're gone, the fact is I can't accept we were once together.

2003-08-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

//drags self to computer =|

Guess where I came back from!? SWIMMING! //grins

Went with Diana, Jasmine, Sheila, Thea, Kristle, Ah Suay and Joanna.

Only Diana, Sheila, Thea, Joanna and I swam, TSKK!

Kristle went off after a while, then Jasmine and Ah Suay sat under the shade.

Hmms, swam till 1250p.m. Off we went to the suana room. //shiok

LOL, damn "hot" damn "cooling." //blahh

Don't know how to describe the feeling in there, just ultimate SHIOK.

Left around 0145p.m. to RiverVale Mall with Jasmine and Diana to have our lunch!

Yum... Had "Yu Tou Mee Fen" and they ate Chicken Rice.

Nahh, wasn't supposed to eat fish, but I still did. //rolls eyes

Tskk, was hungry at that time and didn't think of it. =///

Headed home after our lunch. Happened to see Ryan and Veron at the bus stop!

Haha, chat for a while.

Bus came, it reached my stop, home I walk to, here I am now. =)))

TIRED TIRED TIRED!!! //drops dead on bed

OHH!!! Miraclely, my buddy and I didn't chat on the phone last night! Haha.

TSK TSK! Alright, that's about it.

*//- [0215] I've been wondering, if we never broke up, would we still be together? I doubt so.

2003-08-22T21:48:00.000+08:00

I'm back!!! LOL. I'm happy. I'm mad. I'm free!!! Haha, NOR IS DEFINITELY MAD! Tskk!

Hee. I messagsed her today, and she replied! Hehe.

Happy Hippy Yippy! LOL. Whatever Nor. Haha.

Ohh, today we went to the art museum, so pretty! =)))

I've thought of what I am going to do for my next year O levels art exam. LOL, I know that's fast.

Well, got to do alot of research and preparations, tsk tsk.

Better start early than late. =D

Head for Compass Point(no life) after the museum trip, bought the perfume bottle, $5.90.

Wtf right, so ex! Tskk, but it's ok! LOL. //slaps self

Before that, we went to Yoshinoya and have our so-called dinner, tskk.

I felt so camp at that time, throwing their food(miso soup) all at ME! OMG!

I had 4 bowls of Miso Soup!? WTF!

Alright, had beef bowl and drank only 2 bowls of Miso Soup out of 4.

Hehs, I ain't so piggy afterall. LOL.

Then, one Chawanmushi! Yummy! =)))

Sat the LRT one round, took many photos, had fun! LOL.

Hehe, then it was back to childhood times! LOL.

Diana, Lucinda, Natasha, Celestine, Rachel and I headed for the PLAYGROUND!

LOL, yeahs, childish I know, but we had fun! Tskk!

Played catching, Ice and Melt, Mr Wolf What Time Is It and A E I O U! LOL. Ultimate FUN!!!

Haha, stopped at around 0830p.m.

Then went to nearby foodcourt to get drinks, sat down, chat, went home.

Took a cab with Diana, the cab was DAMN cool!

They had this screen which displays like I think advertisements? LOL. //shrugs

So Diana and I decided to play around with it, then we saw MTV, we pressed!

Damn cool! We could listen to songs! Muahahas. SO FUN!

Then, I forgot to go back to main menu when I got down the cab!? TSKK!

Felt so bad, haha. But nevermind, guess the uncle won't mind anyway. Hehe.

Hmms, that's all i guess! Hee.

Nor is a HAPPY girl today! //grins

*//- [0215] thanks for making my day! =)))

2003-08-21T19:21:00.000+08:00

Dex went back already.

Aww... //kisses brother How sweet! Hee.

Silly brother, be at home and chat with me online! LOL.

I also come home everyday straight after school! I'm sucha good girl! =X

Being alone is not that bad afterall, just got to find some stuff to do.

Hmm, will try to be happy, and I am very sure you've found your happiness.

Thanks brother, I knew I could count on you! //hugs brother tight =)

Alright, let me update about today.

I had Physics and Biology test, I swear I am so gonna fail it.

I freaking hell missed the page that has the answer to the Physics question!

Ohh... so 10 marks GONE just like that?!

Tskk! Just my luck. //pouts

Haha, had fun in toilet when school ended.

There was Diana, Jerlyn, Lucinda, Rachel and Celestine.

I was trying to wet my hair and make it look better.

So I wet my whole head and started wriggling my head at Jerlyn, Rachel and Celestine.

Haha, then it was Diana, target her when she was coming out of the cubicle(think i've got the spelling wrong).

Then, Lucinda, so I cornered her and she LAID on the TOILET floor.

OMG! That girl, I couldn't stop laughing! Hee.

Then came Natasha, cornered her in the cubicle and the water from my head was all on her!

LOL. That silly girl screamed her lungs out, and the rest were laughing outside. Wth!

Hee. Finally, Thea and Kristle turned up. Tskk! Of course they're the victims too! LOL.

Diana and I pushed our way through to open the cubicle door where Thea was in, haha.

That stupid Thea HELD my head when I was about to wriggle the water on her. SMART huh! Haha.

That's it, had lots of fun. I simply love this bunch of people. //kisses 3D

Well well, came home after having fun in the TOILET. Hurr...

Waited for Dex to come over, helped her with some stuff, then she invaded my blog! Hee, that sweet brother.

Tskk! Home she goes at around 0515 p.m.

That's about it! Shall blog tomorrow, got to flirt with my Amath book and papers already! //stress

*//- No matter how harsh am I on you people(3D), trust me on one thing, I will never give up on this class, because I SIMPLY LOVE THIS LOT OF PEOPLE! =)))

2003-08-21T16:36:00.000+08:00

Dex invades!

Grin,i'm at eleanor's place and she's been a wonderful sister.
=)
I chased her off to watch her tv so i can type this entry.
I'm tired but i don't like being home because i've been going home straight like everyday
and i'm sick of being home all alone.

I'm happy and i hope eleanor's gonna be happy too
no matter what happen,i'm gonna be by your side,i promise you sister.
=)

-I LOVE YOU SISTER!-

2003-08-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

Got a new blog, hopefully people will read and comment. =)

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it's a morse code above.

figure it out!